I used to be excited upon the arrival of a new year, but its totally different this time round.
Probably 2009 has been a hectic year throughout
its months and days.
Every second plays apart to what is existing right now.
Made new friends,
met old friends, doing the same shit as the previous years
with some of the regular humans around.
Had both awesome and fucked up jobs.
I hope life's gonna be better in 2010,
i realised even years are usually good years. However, i cant deny this year was pretty much a roller coaster ride for me, friends and family. We've finally moved back to our own home, after 2 years staying over at cuz place. At times, it was hell.
Also, I've made couple of people be-strangered me and I really hope sometime in the future they would come and talk to me once more. Nevertheless, I am sorry to those affected or irritated by me.
I'm stucked earning money to clear my overdued bills,
neither could I send an sms nor make a call right now. The very least, mercy allows me to receive incoming calls and sms.
Hate the fact that I need to lose some hair for proper grooming at work and I'm sick of climbing the hills of Dempsey road.


Dear God, are you listening to our resolutions?
Already a dead meat, I'm living the new year again.
Anyway, this blogger's turning 3 soon :)

Labels: fresh cut fresh year

Labels: strong

I'm only human too
when i reacted that way.
I never wanna lose another close-soul :(

"Cause we're going no where, Baby"
I've come to my senses or rather
i wasn't on my senses when i've finally decided
to let go off everything and try to start a fresh.
I remember how my heart reacted to the alcohol
running thru my veins,
it was frenzy.
Life strangered me from then till now.
I wonder if things around are the part of my daily charades,
if people are acting for emmy's
if things are made to test who we are.
I really wonder how far things can go,
so far, none.
Standing on both feet, i kept on wondering.

Labels: wondering

JINGLE BELLS JINGLING BALLS

First and foremost,
Merry Chirstmas to everyone out there

Its raining outside while i'm sitting at home prolly gonna rot
due to my own recession of money.
All i wanted for christmas is a little understanding from everyone.
I may not show it,
Fuck off with the decoding words or whatsoever you're trying
to say about me aite Hashy?
Yes you were my everylittle thing for that moment and maybe
still is if we were to continue on that way.
But face the fact,
we don't even fucking know each other.
I am terribly sorry for putting on much entertainment to give hopes
for both you and me. Nevertheless, I don't wanna lose you.
Stop being cold towards me aite?
My best buddies should stop jerking their dicks off to clubs. I know i might be the worst party goers among
you guys that I can even get down with any random sluts on the dancefloor. But that's not the fun we used to
have.
I'm fucking broke and lost right now. I'm glad I've got the job over at Jones, but guess what?
All the freaking hard earn money is for the phone outstanding bills. Yea yea, people may think i've used alot
but fuck you, your parents pay for your freaking bills. I'm not trying to curse my parents for not giving me
enough allowance or whatsoever that got to do with $.
I'm so not doing well at school. I used to be one of the few top scorers, but hey being the only failure in class, I'm such a donkey dumbass.
Oh ya, dear maryjane,
I hope you dont mind my fucking attitude at times. Cause if you do, just punch me right in the face k?
Sorry uh, perangai izat sial
I know its hard to let go. Same goes to me, I never wanted to let go of things. Hold on to the right thing,
that is Yourself :) I want you to be happy aite?

Yea mates, fuck your girlfriend fuck that girl you met in the club or any bitch around
cause i dont care.
'Merry fucking christmas Khairul Anshar,
you're totally a dead meat by now. '

Labels: dead meat

I swear I'm gonna cry after I'm done with this.
call me a pussy or whatever you like.

Dear Goh Xinning,
even I know you are such a bitch,
it is very hard for me to get over you.
I miss you terribly.
I'm still wondering what really went wrong the other night.
After you've walked away, that's it
life totally changed.
You might have decided to be happy on your own
being selfish not to include me in your life no more.
I am not hoping for more or trying to pull back time,
but is it really my fault?

I'm kinda a lost soul now,
maybe I've changed for the bad or
I've met better people out there.
I'm feeling so sick that I wanna let go of everything. Forgetting things that ever existed in my life,
aiming only for what will do good for me. I'm still stressed up over my exploded bill. But hey,
hell yea i've got the job at Jones.
Christmas coming, i'm penniless to the core i felt so hopeless.

We decide to think of the past, we can also decide for a brighter future
why choose to think of hurt if you can actually choose to love?

Labels: lost for once

If only things were made easier

Common test ended with BI for the last paper,
classmates told me I probably be the only MIIT test failure
in the class.
I'm not trying to be cool by fooling myself around

MJ is still in Aussie
She'd probably be munching and munching
hours after hours, days after days
'Babi, aku miss kau giler babi sampai boleh jadi gilerr'

On another note,
if you're reading this
I'm sorry Miss Sunflower. But, thanks for deleting me off :)

Jones, the grocer called up for a trial workshift on tuesday
yeahbaby, money money in my pocket please.

Labels: deleted

Labels: waston love

Alright,
here's the real deal
common test week is next week.
I swear I don't understand a single shit during revision periods.
Neither do I understand a single thing happening around me.

Here, I'm trying to elude the past

It's weird when feelings start to go over board
lesser sense of guilt
and sweet little pleasures arise in you.
You'll be wondering the whole lot of it before you really fall asleep

I've always been looking forward
for the next day,
life's seemed shorter.
Are we ageing or are we dying?

p.s: i miss you like how jenna jameson misses acting porno

Labels: things around

Currently at Hafiz house,

AKU MISS KAU, babi.

k that's all. :P

Labels: babi1

"I WILL 
LEARN TO WEB-SLING FROM THE WEST
TO THE EAST AND BACK TO THE WEST
CAUSE YOU DESERVE BEST"

it's in green cause you like green

Labels: parker's girl

Life is heaven itself
I've met great people in life
everyone has been great to me :)
Maybe I'm not good enough to some,
but thanks for everything though.

Common tests are coming next week.
I've learnt nothing for the past 8 weeks,
congrats Anshar

Labels: lg

Oh great Mr Poor thing,
you've just been ditch by your girlfriend within 3days
maybe just because she lost feelings towards you
and trying her best to get back her ex boyfriend.
It's amazing how you can pull yourself up
Life sucks? Nope it's not
There's more to look forward

Labels: oh man

I cannot say that you've cheated on my feelings
I cannot say that you don't love me
I cannot say that you are wrong
I cannot say anything anymore

I miss you terribly
But you have to choose to go on your own way
With tears, I wish you all the best Baby

:( call me emo for fuck care, i'm sad.

Labels: A L A

I don't know where to start,
but i don't want it to end.

i miss you terribly :(
don't you?

Labels: miss a

Labels: annA

Labels: away from gxn

Labels: part missed

EVERYTHING
how could you be nothing?
you're every little thing, H.

Labels: h evything

"Am I going crazy
or I am already crazy"

fuck.
I'm broke.
at times, I feel very happy.
at times, I cant feel anything.
I am lost.

I'm having a deal with the devil for happiness.

Labels: moving on

'Can we rest and be dead for awhile?'

we chose to escape from reality
piling up more sins day after day
we try being someone else
while hiding beneath those coward shadows
how much longer can you hold?
how much longer can you stand?

the race over dude, you back on the bench :)

Labels: u're dead

Labels: presence

"A heart starts to speak to the other heart
without knowing they're still strangers.
Stay close with me
even how far you go"

Labels: h

Labels: 7th NOV

"Mum had never taught me about love,
but I did, didn't I?"

Just completed my MIIT assignment
damn i hate school. lol.
I had this bad bad sore throat, cough plus flu
and guess what, my band's first gig is on this saturday.
Gotta drink lots and lots of water and cough syrup!

You musn't be sad
cause you don't deserve to be sad
all this while you've made people happy
Then every of the days, you should be happy

Come on pal,
Tell me what's happiness and what's sadness?
Those moments of happiness,
once you start to think about them
Feel, that's sadness
cause, for it was once there,
It is no longer here.

look ahead, you'll smile :)

Labels: sedihgembira

HASHY

I think a song titled 'Hashy' would be weird, but why not? Hahaha

Labels: haha

Sometimes, it's hard when people misunderstand
especially people whom you're very close to
you cant avoid misunderstanding.
I am trying very hard to move on from every single
thing i wish i had but didn't
You might think what friends said are true,
but try stepping into my shoes
Come on,we are good friends after all
but why choose ignorance?
I wanted you so badly, but you don't want.
So I'm trying to escape the fact i've lost something.
We are good friends, why drift away
why ignore text messages? the answer is obvious,
you need not say goodbye :(

I FEEL LIKE SHIT EVERY SINGLE DAY
DONT YOU KNOW THAT?

Labels: pls gxn

I've seen how simple love can be
seriously it is as easy as abc or 123
but somehow when things are not meant to be
it would be rather tough on you
waiting for a lifetime isn't love my dear friends
That's more like an emo shit waiting for something
to drop from the sky
We know you did alot
We know that you would die for her
But she wouldn't
so, why worth the chase?

Anyway, life have been rather easier now i guess
Skipped about 6 lessons already for these 2 weeks of school
Took a cab which cost $18 bucks to school but still ending up late
H have been really nice these few days, we go out k one day? 

GIG next saturday! lol. 
 

Labels: wait

IT HAS BEEN A VERY LONG TIME
SINCE THIS BLOG IS UPDATED

Hey guys, My band The Edited Playlist is
going to play our first public gig on the 7th Nov
@ L-cube, Hindoo rd, 145A Jalan besar road,
at 7PM.
So do come down and support okay :)
















maybe you don't love me as much as i do,
so maybe i should start loving you like how you did
or maybe you don't love, and you won't

Labels: first gig

Labels: all the bdaes

Labels: twin's youngest bro

Labels: orphan

Labels: bye mtech

Labels: sg 44th

BLOGGER WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENNING?
I CANT POST PICS,
CANT CHANGE FONT,
CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING EXCEPT THIS

Labels: wtf

I used to be excited upon the arrival of a new year, but its totally different this time round.
Probably 2009 has been a hectic year throughout
its months and days.
Every second plays apart to what is existing right now.
Made new friends,
met old friends, doing the same shit as the previous years
with some of the regular humans around.
Had both awesome and fucked up jobs.
I hope life's gonna be better in 2010,
i realised even years are usually good years. However, i cant deny this year was pretty much a roller coaster ride for me, friends and family. We've finally moved back to our own home, after 2 years staying over at cuz place. At times, it was hell.
Also, I've made couple of people be-strangered me and I really hope sometime in the future they would come and talk to me once more. Nevertheless, I am sorry to those affected or irritated by me.
I'm stucked earning money to clear my overdued bills,
neither could I send an sms nor make a call right now. The very least, mercy allows me to receive incoming calls and sms.
Hate the fact that I need to lose some hair for proper grooming at work and I'm sick of climbing the hills of Dempsey road.


Dear God, are you listening to our resolutions?
Already a dead meat, I'm living the new year again.
Anyway, this blogger's turning 3 soon :)

Labels: fresh cut fresh year

Labels: strong

I'm only human too
when i reacted that way.
I never wanna lose another close-soul :(

"Cause we're going no where, Baby"
I've come to my senses or rather
i wasn't on my senses when i've finally decided
to let go off everything and try to start a fresh.
I remember how my heart reacted to the alcohol
running thru my veins,
it was frenzy.
Life strangered me from then till now.
I wonder if things around are the part of my daily charades,
if people are acting for emmy's
if things are made to test who we are.
I really wonder how far things can go,
so far, none.
Standing on both feet, i kept on wondering.

Labels: wondering

JINGLE BELLS JINGLING BALLS

First and foremost,
Merry Chirstmas to everyone out there

Its raining outside while i'm sitting at home prolly gonna rot
due to my own recession of money.
All i wanted for christmas is a little understanding from everyone.
I may not show it,
Fuck off with the decoding words or whatsoever you're trying
to say about me aite Hashy?
Yes you were my everylittle thing for that moment and maybe
still is if we were to continue on that way.
But face the fact,
we don't even fucking know each other.
I am terribly sorry for putting on much entertainment to give hopes
for both you and me. Nevertheless, I don't wanna lose you.
Stop being cold towards me aite?
My best buddies should stop jerking their dicks off to clubs. I know i might be the worst party goers among
you guys that I can even get down with any random sluts on the dancefloor. But that's not the fun we used to
have.
I'm fucking broke and lost right now. I'm glad I've got the job over at Jones, but guess what?
All the freaking hard earn money is for the phone outstanding bills. Yea yea, people may think i've used alot
but fuck you, your parents pay for your freaking bills. I'm not trying to curse my parents for not giving me
enough allowance or whatsoever that got to do with $.
I'm so not doing well at school. I used to be one of the few top scorers, but hey being the only failure in class, I'm such a donkey dumbass.
Oh ya, dear maryjane,
I hope you dont mind my fucking attitude at times. Cause if you do, just punch me right in the face k?
Sorry uh, perangai izat sial
I know its hard to let go. Same goes to me, I never wanted to let go of things. Hold on to the right thing,
that is Yourself :) I want you to be happy aite?

Yea mates, fuck your girlfriend fuck that girl you met in the club or any bitch around
cause i dont care.
'Merry fucking christmas Khairul Anshar,
you're totally a dead meat by now. '

Labels: dead meat

I swear I'm gonna cry after I'm done with this.
call me a pussy or whatever you like.

Dear Goh Xinning,
even I know you are such a bitch,
it is very hard for me to get over you.
I miss you terribly.
I'm still wondering what really went wrong the other night.
After you've walked away, that's it
life totally changed.
You might have decided to be happy on your own
being selfish not to include me in your life no more.
I am not hoping for more or trying to pull back time,
but is it really my fault?

I'm kinda a lost soul now,
maybe I've changed for the bad or
I've met better people out there.
I'm feeling so sick that I wanna let go of everything. Forgetting things that ever existed in my life,
aiming only for what will do good for me. I'm still stressed up over my exploded bill. But hey,
hell yea i've got the job at Jones.
Christmas coming, i'm penniless to the core i felt so hopeless.

We decide to think of the past, we can also decide for a brighter future
why choose to think of hurt if you can actually choose to love?

Labels: lost for once

If only things were made easier

Common test ended with BI for the last paper,
classmates told me I probably be the only MIIT test failure
in the class.
I'm not trying to be cool by fooling myself around

MJ is still in Aussie
She'd probably be munching and munching
hours after hours, days after days
'Babi, aku miss kau giler babi sampai boleh jadi gilerr'

On another note,
if you're reading this
I'm sorry Miss Sunflower. But, thanks for deleting me off :)

Jones, the grocer called up for a trial workshift on tuesday
yeahbaby, money money in my pocket please.

Labels: deleted

Labels: waston love

Alright,
here's the real deal
common test week is next week.
I swear I don't understand a single shit during revision periods.
Neither do I understand a single thing happening around me.

Here, I'm trying to elude the past

It's weird when feelings start to go over board
lesser sense of guilt
and sweet little pleasures arise in you.
You'll be wondering the whole lot of it before you really fall asleep

I've always been looking forward
for the next day,
life's seemed shorter.
Are we ageing or are we dying?

p.s: i miss you like how jenna jameson misses acting porno

Labels: things around

Currently at Hafiz house,

AKU MISS KAU, babi.

k that's all. :P

Labels: babi1

"I WILL 
LEARN TO WEB-SLING FROM THE WEST
TO THE EAST AND BACK TO THE WEST
CAUSE YOU DESERVE BEST"

it's in green cause you like green

Labels: parker's girl

Life is heaven itself
I've met great people in life
everyone has been great to me :)
Maybe I'm not good enough to some,
but thanks for everything though.

Common tests are coming next week.
I've learnt nothing for the past 8 weeks,
congrats Anshar

Labels: lg

Oh great Mr Poor thing,
you've just been ditch by your girlfriend within 3days
maybe just because she lost feelings towards you
and trying her best to get back her ex boyfriend.
It's amazing how you can pull yourself up
Life sucks? Nope it's not
There's more to look forward

Labels: oh man

I cannot say that you've cheated on my feelings
I cannot say that you don't love me
I cannot say that you are wrong
I cannot say anything anymore

I miss you terribly
But you have to choose to go on your own way
With tears, I wish you all the best Baby

:( call me emo for fuck care, i'm sad.

Labels: A L A

I don't know where to start,
but i don't want it to end.

i miss you terribly :(
don't you?

Labels: miss a

Labels: annA

Labels: away from gxn

Labels: part missed

EVERYTHING
how could you be nothing?
you're every little thing, H.

Labels: h evything

"Am I going crazy
or I am already crazy"

fuck.
I'm broke.
at times, I feel very happy.
at times, I cant feel anything.
I am lost.

I'm having a deal with the devil for happiness.

Labels: moving on

'Can we rest and be dead for awhile?'

we chose to escape from reality
piling up more sins day after day
we try being someone else
while hiding beneath those coward shadows
how much longer can you hold?
how much longer can you stand?

the race over dude, you back on the bench :)

Labels: u're dead

Labels: presence

"A heart starts to speak to the other heart
without knowing they're still strangers.
Stay close with me
even how far you go"

Labels: h

Labels: 7th NOV

"Mum had never taught me about love,
but I did, didn't I?"

Just completed my MIIT assignment
damn i hate school. lol.
I had this bad bad sore throat, cough plus flu
and guess what, my band's first gig is on this saturday.
Gotta drink lots and lots of water and cough syrup!

You musn't be sad
cause you don't deserve to be sad
all this while you've made people happy
Then every of the days, you should be happy

Come on pal,
Tell me what's happiness and what's sadness?
Those moments of happiness,
once you start to think about them
Feel, that's sadness
cause, for it was once there,
It is no longer here.

look ahead, you'll smile :)

Labels: sedihgembira

HASHY

I think a song titled 'Hashy' would be weird, but why not? Hahaha

Labels: haha

Sometimes, it's hard when people misunderstand
especially people whom you're very close to
you cant avoid misunderstanding.
I am trying very hard to move on from every single
thing i wish i had but didn't
You might think what friends said are true,
but try stepping into my shoes
Come on,we are good friends after all
but why choose ignorance?
I wanted you so badly, but you don't want.
So I'm trying to escape the fact i've lost something.
We are good friends, why drift away
why ignore text messages? the answer is obvious,
you need not say goodbye :(

I FEEL LIKE SHIT EVERY SINGLE DAY
DONT YOU KNOW THAT?

Labels: pls gxn

I've seen how simple love can be
seriously it is as easy as abc or 123
but somehow when things are not meant to be
it would be rather tough on you
waiting for a lifetime isn't love my dear friends
That's more like an emo shit waiting for something
to drop from the sky
We know you did alot
We know that you would die for her
But she wouldn't
so, why worth the chase?

Anyway, life have been rather easier now i guess
Skipped about 6 lessons already for these 2 weeks of school
Took a cab which cost $18 bucks to school but still ending up late
H have been really nice these few days, we go out k one day? 

GIG next saturday! lol. 
 

Labels: wait

IT HAS BEEN A VERY LONG TIME
SINCE THIS BLOG IS UPDATED

Hey guys, My band The Edited Playlist is
going to play our first public gig on the 7th Nov
@ L-cube, Hindoo rd, 145A Jalan besar road,
at 7PM.
So do come down and support okay :)
















maybe you don't love me as much as i do,
so maybe i should start loving you like how you did
or maybe you don't love, and you won't

Labels: first gig

Labels: all the bdaes

Labels: twin's youngest bro

Labels: orphan

Labels: bye mtech

Labels: sg 44th

BLOGGER WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENNING?
I CANT POST PICS,
CANT CHANGE FONT,
CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING EXCEPT THIS

Labels: wtf